16/11/11....^^

16/11/11 is my important day, mean i with my baka honey oledi be together 6 month le, Time reli go so fs leh....But me always select this date sick >< haiz....baka sure feel veli dissapoited, baka reli reli soli..>< i will repay u so baka don worry ya..^^. That night, i veli happy and shock when she suddenly gv me a card, inside that card i can feel full of love inside, that y before she send me the that few day she will always mention the card, so stupid ar me....still don get it, Anyway baka thx for the card u do it for me..reli happy bez, 1st time i receive this card.^^ Muacksss..<3 . Baka i promise u no matter wat i will gv u all the best for u, not onli i will say...i will prove u 1 day, hp baka will always be a side wth me, accompany wth me...^^ Baka Reli LoVe U ar..u make me so touch...TT MUacksss <3

Sick....

What a beautiful date which is 111111, and i prefer today sick jor...reli knw hw to choose a day to sick lo, haiz...Just feel want to relax and lundu trip tomorrow, bt nw sick le..hw to enjoy ==....Feel dizzy and uncomfortable nw, haiz...Start from flu then sore throat, haiz....reli reli don knw hw to say le lo...==

To my Grandma.....17/10/2011

17/10/11...is the day u pass away, when i 1st morning receive the message tat u hv pass away, the 1st tears from my face hv come out....The way u love to us and the way u take care of us, i won frogot in the life, Grandma...u still knw when i still child, my body nt veli healthy at that time u always stay at my side and take good care of me...and oso when i come, u will always prepare some thing for me to eat, especially ur noddles and Soy sauce wth rice. u're the best best grandma and the onli one ppl dosent hv......
Everytime i hear my mom say ur story hw u take care so many of my mom bro and sis wth ur own hand without and ppl helping u, i feel veli proud to hv u Grandma, since tat u sick tat day....u still help us, no matter wat happen, til u sick badly just can sit at the wheelchair to celebrate ur 70Birthday, u still can smile and ur smile always Kindly, then u been send to miri. Then onli just can visit u when im holiday, after a year pass a year, when i go visit u tat time, u oledi cant walk and talk le...Grandma i knw u still knw me,bez everytime i visit tat time ur action veli big, tis prove tat u haven froget me...and i felt veli Heartache look u like tis, eveything ned to use needle and tube to eat thing....Bt ur face din show any pain, Bt i knw Grandma this reli pain, u just cant say onli...Grandma forgive me tis few year cant visit u, bez of some reason Grandma...i felt reli Unfiliality, Til u pass away tat day i oso cant see u...Grandma i reli Unfiliality Unfiliality Unfiliality Unfiliality Unfiliality. Today u been send to ur hometown maybe oledi arrive le...Grandma i wish u could go well, the onli thing for me can do is Bless grandma R.I.P, and i will visit u when 清明...Grandma ur grandson LOVE U...reli LOVE U.
And this message in here i hp u can see it, onli for u my Dearest Grandma(陈爱凊)...From Ur Grandson ling wei ping(林为彬).

16/10....important day

Today is me and my baka 5 month together le...hapi hapi, bt just normal onli...no

suprising, no gift and nth, think of it look like fail to be a person. Everytime say

will gv wat and wat, bt in the end wat thing do i gv...so ashamed. Just nw wan bring

her go eat pizza oso cant, bez of my head pain..haiz, reli depress. Today onli like

tis normal life wth her....so unhappy today.

^^

This is my word from my heart.....to my baka^^

Baka no matter where u are, sadness, happiness or other thing.

I stupiak will always accompany baka if u wish for...

Won say NO to baka....Love u baka<3

.............

So sad...sufforcated

Hp just get through of it, and don think about it....

When see this my heart will pain x2...reli don wan like tis le...

Maybe i can don care le....almost le, reli almost le....

I don wan go through tis pain anymore...it will become my nightmare,

Pretend like nth happen reli hard to do...everytime i ned to think many many thing

Til my hair almost all white le...Someone pls come and end tis,

Then i no ned to think think and think again anymore....

All my heart and felling...I just onli can post here and remind myself won

Become a good.

Be Strong...

I....

wan to be strong, i think i too good to be a person, tat everything is ok...

Nw i learn hw to be independent myself, whether i hv nth i oso won care le...

Bez...like tis i can be more confident is good for my future..when i come out and work.

This is wat i wan to be...

Speecless.....

U....li hai

1st time see tis kind of ppl...

u think u so damn fucking angry is it when i say this "US" out...i gt say XXXXX wan

go US o....GT OR NT..then say wat objibala word to me...and kick the chair, u tot i

scare ar. Tell u...WON'T, Pls la...think of urself before u talk, u think u gt ur

feeling i don hv ha?? u gt think when u say something tat hurt somebody, and i just

keep it inside onli. Its nt the 1st time oledi....u think u knw some eng think tat u

pro le, Its it...tell u, Go to hv ur dream at US ba. And before u talk about other

ppl...pls think of urself before u say anyone and hv a look on the mirror. Don try

to make tis Action again, or else u see whether i will reli slap u or nt.

............

Scare le....

im knw im nt a gud person...maybe in ur mind gv u just hv negative de and bad de image

for u ba...

veli sad when everytime see u post this thing in fb...Its Hurt....

Some Peanut Bread.....^^ wth hamster^^

17/8>> Yesterday...anything special, actually ok la, just feel tired bt happy bez..it just started to start my 1 claz, Gt any new face...Tis no ned say la, of coarse lo...no many i knew in every claz bt for me i oledi get use of it, many oledi long time i stay in school le ba... and oso every sem do the same thing when finish my holiday. Bt yesterday i receive tat baka do the peanut bread for me to eat before we go to 101..feel veli Happiness bez, together wth her 1st time she do for me...whether its a simply bread tat everyone can do, bt for me its oledi enough le^^. And yesterday oso bought a hamster tat i promise her, she ar...happy til cannot ar hahaha...when see she like tis, i oso feel happy. So baka ar baka ned to take care carefully ar...don later feel bored liao throw to me..i don accept o...XD <3

Keep Fit...

I think strt from today i ned to kep fit le....

Many ppl say i fat oledi, ACTUALLY IS TRUE LO...

So tis holiday, i ned to eat less thing, do more exercise and more...

Bez...i wan to hv a slim body, hahaha....

And like tis i can buy my shirt easily.....

................

I



愛を必要と
気にする必要
同行する必要があります。

ため


今私はひとりです
今私はそう孤独な


私は疲れた
私のような人は誰をか騰する

Sad...Angry...Dissapoited....

Y? u always think i come here din put my effort to study the sub...y? u always think that i always go out play...YYYYYY??? i tell u i oledi try my best le, u don believe again..then how u wan me to do..then what will make u feel that i reli study hard to pass it all..haiz...reli sad ar, i just wan to u gv me so effort nt the A~Z de thing to me..tis make me loss my confident oledi...u think i don scare my result being like this meh..haiz, reli speechless...

......Nervous.....

Strt from tomorrow is my final test. so scare and nervous....><

Bt...i ned to put more effort in it...

Don knw whether i will fail my sub or nt...bt i knw i oledi do my best le...

And oso ned to put more effort on myself to hv my own dream and oso that person...

Test...Zzz

Next week test..

I strt my study tonight, feel veli stress ar...don knw i can do it or nt

So scare of my result, scare later u see my parent strt to spell A~Z to me....

Haiz..so tired tis sem, don knw y? i tis sem will feel like tis, maybe i take three

sub in tis short sem ba. Reli fs, just feel strt my claz about few week nia..nw wan

final exam le,tis sem reli rush til i tired le....

Hopefully i can do it well in tis final exam, i just request for pass...no ned get til

A..for me im statisfied oledi.

Haiz...hp i can memorise and go through tis few day hard life for me, then i can 100%

relax le. So just say to myself gambateh bah, Do my best...

.......

Sometimes....

We can just silent, less talking, do more work better than u talk.

So....i oso wan like this, just do ur own work don kacau other ppl...

Its better for us. Although u been complain by other ppl, oso need to maintain silent

To train urself to be professional in many thing. Sometimes, i feel that i so useless

in everything..cant understand, cant get wat ppl say and many thing.

And talk many thing that did nt think about it, then later make urself shy onli.

Fell shamful. start from now on...i must remain silent...

Family...~.~

I..Born in a normal family, that mean nt a rich ppl, and nt a poor ppl. Just gan gan ho.

Hmmm...talk about family, i found out that im nt a money saver in many thing. Don knw

Y? i don think about money come from where, and don think about it..just spend it like

water. Actually sometimes i gt think that y? i will like this. Onli my dad re working

to earn money, FOR WHO. Of coarse is for this family and we. our family maybe nt that

rich, bt someday i hp i will make my family hv a better life for it. To repay my dad

my mom. I will someday...

Tomorrow...jun 29^^

Onli left few hour then 1 of my VIP BAKA finally birthday le^^ she finally 20 years old le...Happy^^. Fist of coarse need to celebrate her birthday la..haha, bt i scare i cant do well in her birthday, reli scare tomorrow cant let her happy. Like just nw don knw y i think a lot le, bez...i here don hv anything, i reli cannot do anything to her,haha..i bit laoya right..that y? if she will happy if ppl can bring she go out play and celebrate i rather agreed, nt i wan to push u to other ppl..is bez i care everything whether in such simple thing that will affect me. That y? if u happy i happy, if u no mood i will oso nervous and don knw wat to do. Baka, sometimes i will think that is that reli i can relationship wth u..i scare, i cant go through myself that i hv no anything and everytime i will think for it. Count from that day since i just knw u..almost 1 year out like this le, reli happy to hv u this frez when u accept me as ur frenz, then we become bro and sis...ur careness, ur kindness, ur confident, ur frenzship and many many other thing, that u make for me is oledi enough for me. when that day u agree will become my baka that day, i swear..i will do everything to make u happy even wan my life oso can. Baka i happy to knw u and u accept like me this kind of ppl. RELI THX YOU baka...if no u i don knw wat will i be, and i won hv many happy memory in my life and my smile..thx baka. And here i wish my baka ar, don always blame urself when ur test not gud enough, as u knw i will worried. And see u this afternoon hapi when ur mom sms to u that kind of message, i see u hapi til like a child haha...cute arXD. Baka ur stupiak here wish u this baka will healthy forever and happy always ar ok ma :)

Envy..

看到他们能这样…说真的有点羡慕他们能够这样…我不能…

Pic....

Haha...
Don knw wherther reli stupid or nt, just like sometimes don knw y? when my mood nt veli good that time, i will go see that person de pic...then see she like this, i feel veli relax to enjoy the pic, so strange ho!! me is like this de lo....haha, actually like this oso gud i think, like this if my mood down i won make my anger to that other ppl, i think it is benefit for me lo...haha. Bt sometimes don knw y? will scare and wan to hv a range wth her. Anyway...hp that baka always happy and healthy neh..XD

......

我的人生...我的愿望, 再次破了...没有了真的没有了, 现在的我只想做回我自己,我想再次的封闭起来...再也不想了..

Study...Education....

Just wan to say...

Some kind of ppl like Me

Don hv a clever brain wth full of education.

And oso knw that, myself is nt a ppl who will study at this kind of college.

so.........

wat can i do, i hv to choice....in my family and other my relative-relative,

Put all the sight at me..Im Stress, bt they din knw how i suffer all this.

Sometimes i might think about can i straight go to work, is better and free for me,

Bt i promise my family that i won let them down, that y? i put X2 effort from other.

Bt who knw leh, NO PPl. That y? i always stay at hostel doing thing alone just wan

to focus study, won feel like go where to play. Being a ppl stay in his room

everyday doing the thing repeat everyday, its feel veli sufforcated. wat to do...

Reli tired...this reli tired. Bt in this 2 years being like this...i oledi learn

to be like this, so nvm le...just hp i can finish all the study, then it is my

freedom for me, and i think i won continue my study le...so just GAMBATeh myself.

Everyday i remind myself left 5 sub le, i cannot fail again....so wan to try my best

to pass all of it...

Exam...NEXT WEEK....

Stress...Next week exam, cant memorise anything yet...and that baka also..see her stress at there memorise her hotel note, see her like this....put Efforts on it, reli a good girl..haha. Nt like me lo..still at there play play like this, like still relax relax at there and sleeping there..==. So useless lo...haiz. I oso don knw how i can say to myself le lo..Its no longer for me at this Inti here, i still don wan take my last shoot..to shoot all result wth a "BLUE" colour result...haha XD, last hope le o..just ned to strength myself and say gambateh neh (HENDRY). Go through this all sub, then i can say is my freedom strt on that day, before strt my real work...I WAN GO RELAX ar..........i wan go play play go travel travel, I oledi plan all my road how i gonna do...xixixi, Last just wan to wait my baka study finish..then i can strt my plan 1.wohohohoXD."BAKA HP U GT SEE AR" XD....and talk about my frenz, hmmm...something reli miss them, i wan see them T.T, just don knw how re them now....

Exam...

Next week...

Exam..

I haven study yet...

Stress....

Assignment ned to rush....

Im tired...

Who can Hlp me...

Hmmm...16/5/11, Is important day for me^^

This few day reli veli boring, school holiday...don knw wan to do wat, bt so lucky lo, my frenz at btu come here play and fetch me go play play and eat eat, i think i.....oledi......Fat.....jor this few day, so siao lo my frez, eat this eat that, and drink a cup that is about 13cm of carrot juice and watermelon juice by: My siao siao de frenz call de..==lll. Bt anyway they come here oso bring a lot of fun that reduce my bored in this school holiday, hmmm...bck to my topic 16/5 hehe, one kind of my big day wth that baka, feel that so unbelievable together wth her, anyway and thx for that baka make me stupid stupid everyday lo, wakakaka....bt so sad i will think, is that enough that now i can gv to her de..haiz, don knw and don knw...don wan think about it, now the important thing is>>>>ASSIGNMENT ar, this sem reli ned to rush in everything veli stressful sub this sem, reli ned to gambateh neh....hp that day that baka will gv me strength to move on...BAKA I COUNT ON U LE AR...XD

Is New day, New life, New experience, New frenz, and.....XD

Is 23/05/11...Morning go enroll my sub, walao...i just knew that i still gt 5 sub to go, then baru can go for my training bo...haiz, so tired the subject that i had all nt human being study de lo..bt wat to do, is my choice to choose and study de, so must finish it lo..if nt later 2 of my gurdian will always gv me some cool cool de word in my head..haha, Think ar think reli so fs, just feel that onli come out and study nia, now wan graduted le, so fs lo...1 day by 1 day, mean me 1 day old 1 day le o, my hair now full of white hair.==ll, wan go dye again...haiz, hp i can fs fs finish all my sub and go for work, more better than study lo, and i promise i oso wan wait someone till +++ finish her study..^^

Miss.....

I
Just
wan
to
knw
whether
u
can
accompany
me
til
the
end
ma??? ^^

Alone

me still me...in the end i think no le,no people will understand me and i feel veli lonely in this moment...who can help me ne? I think no,i am now sitting at downstair with a bottle of water,and sit there alone with the fan..that now i write my feeling in my blog in a weather raining night..and with a painful heart!

Test...Frenzship...^^

Fiu....this 2 week reli busy for my exam wan die in this few week, bez...study in midnight oil reason is fight wth that stupid book to my brain...haiz, i hp this exam that i do won disappoited me when the result is out...hp that my test paper will knw my feeling that i have sacrifed my sleep to exchange ur knowledge...reli scare and reli hp i will get a good result when its out. Talk about test, hmmm...reli left 8 days then i will bck to my hometown to recharge my bettery, is good for me to recharge bt oso sad of my dearest frenz that gonna leave me soon, sometime when think about it, my heart will automatic pain and hard to breath. But now a day, i won feel that pain anymore, i knw u all will find me when u all finish ur intership, and i trust that u all won froget me. starting i reli feel that i will be lonley don hv u all, but now i knw actually i still gt other frenz that oso care me a lot...then y i still ned to be like this ne...sometime reli feel that i so stupid lo..hahaha, I won tell u guy when it is the last day we meet....In my heart here i will say, THANK YOU U GUY ACCOMAPANY ME IN THIS 2 YEAR...I WON FROGET U ALL, BEZ U ALL IS NOW LIVING IN MY HEART.

Left 1 month......2 year le.....

IS onli left 1 month then im oledi 2 years stay in Inti college here. Hehe..yesterday u all say y? my attitude suddenly change become strange de..then i say gt meh? where gt ar...actually u all right, the main reason i will like this is bez i wan cover all my feeling to u all...to make me stronger, bt i nt feeling so well..when i see u all happy happy go take ur intership that make my heart reli hurt, then i will start thinking y? i cannot be like u all, im veli stupid isn't it..YES I AM. I try to be Independent that without u all my frenz i still will make my best to make it better, actually its onli word of my reason just wan to make myself better, im so stupid. Ney actually i wan tell u my feeling bt i just don knw how to open my mouth to say this to u..actually after this month ur elephant will become veli weak, in that case i hp ney will pull me out from this, ney elephant have left nth anymore beside u after this month, i hp ney won feel me bother u, before me learn how to alone without any stress..i hp ney will accompany me in this end of the year bez in next new semester me(elephant) maybe is the weakness person and easy to drop down like a toufu anytime...so that time ney don froget to hlp me stand again.

Age...

Maybe u all will think y? i will make a couple smaller with the age that smaller than me.....feel that u cheating or playing the girl feeling.....!!!
Bt for me..i don care whether my another part with the age that small than me.....
what i wan and care is the girl who will love me, care me, make me laugh and understanding my feeling...that enough for me..i din wish my another part to be perfect, i just wish to have a normal love and can accompany me whether i at where, just wan a simple and happy memory wth the person i love. Like this kind of girl, i will spend my life wth her without any reason just wan to accompany her and make she always happiness.

Is April of 2011...

Today...new month for me to strt my new life after my birthday oledi pass by, that im now 20 years old oledi, im nt a child anymore...and of coarse something i gonna loss something after this semester, something that is veli important to me, its almost 2 and the half year wth u guy go through together wth the memory that u all hv gv me...yes it is>>When we laugh we laugh together, when we sad we sad together, when we happy we hapy together...these thing cant buy or change by money, For me it is treasures...reli will miss u guy, sometimes feel that don wan continue study anymore..bt i don wan parent disappoited, and now i still build my confident to carried on, i don wan half way stop my study..then i knw i will regret someday..so i will do this man..and thx for giving me confident my frenz thx...^^ V

The memory wth u all...^^ 29/3/2011

Today is the day i feel veli happy...no y? is because i happy that i can celebrate my birthday wth my frenz that i love a lot, it been how many year le, i din have this suprise til today u all gv me a veli big suprise make me wan to Cry TT...bt maybe i so pro in it, i make myself nt even a single eye drop come out from my eye, im stupid right...haha, bez is so shame if cry in front of them...hmmm, NO good right..hehe, anyway here i just wan to thx all my fellow frenz espically ppl who organize this suprise to me...i won froget all the memory have been go through with u all..TT, I will miss u all...and i love u all forever...X3

Graduation...

I feel veli worried,
No mood
Cant sleep well
Always dream about this
reli wan like them
i don wan fail my subject anymore
i wan fs graduate
reli make me sufforcated
It reli make me sad when i knw i this time reli gonna lose u all soon
Feel that cant continue anymore
Reli Sad....

幸福滴偶^^

Im now feel happiness that i feel that im the lucky person to hv u, accompany me everyday and every second, u make me veli relieved on u to put my heart on u, bez u won do anything stupid de and Foolishly to make me worried about. 1 month oledi we together without any Obstruction together until today, that make me more confident that we can do it together. I won promise and also make sure 100% we will together forever, but 1 thing that i can promise u and gv u is i hendry ling will accompany u whether u at where, anything that happen to u just won leave u alone. Sometime u always make me smile but sometime i will feel that u just like a super active little child that make me feel wan to protect, Maybe our age a little bit far, but for me age is nt the problem i care...the real that i care is will we be together forever. In my heart the door onli 1, that is u>>(余聚晶) who oledi fill all my heart and lock it.onli u can open with the key i have gave u..if nt it won open easily. Sometime don knw y? i will keep miss u, and wan to fs finish my final exam and bck to see u...maybe this wat we call miss someone bt cant see her de reason, bt i will hv a patient to wait the time and date that everyday pass. In the end i will treasure ur careness, ur love , ur heart and the thing u hv gave me...I ♥ U

Thx^^

Hehehe....Me HENDRY LING

Feel veli Happy and Comfortable

Bez...of ur care, ur love dearly i feel very happiness...^^

Thx..for appear in my life wth me together...^^

"AH BI" <3

Different between Heart...

Hmmm.......i just knw

Pretty girl nt confirm 100% GOOD.......

I just knw pretty but ur heart is extreme bad......is veli useless u hv that pretty face....^^

CNY...wohooo^^

1 Year 1 time of our Chinese New Year.....time reli go so fs, just feel that me...myself just past january

nia, but actually is ok oso..hehe^^....hmmm, i wonder y? i and my frenz feel that this year CNY is veli

quite, depend on last year still gt new year song all the shopping complex even the the kopitiam oso...

but this time quite til we feel strange it is CNY or wat?? By the way still left some day me can go bck

again celebrate CNY wth family and oso go frenz house 1 by 1 morning til night, when think about

tis...feel hapi^^ i hp this year i and family will always healthy forever and my studies will go on straight

without any this "STOP" sign at my front or future...^^

The Road....

Feel than getting older 1 day by 1 day, as my mom tell me every any season that we hv gone through confirm will hv this word "After Ended This Season U No longer a child le" ==llll,haha but is true oso....and is time for me to think about my road. when in secondary school the poem we hv learn that discuss something about the road u choose to be difficulties or easier. This few night i always hv an inspiration think about the past if i using this road to travel, My road is straight or something at my front will stop me at there..and now i a bit scare when out in society....am i going to be working without any reason until i die...haiz.... Ah Rung: I don knw wat happen to u, i knw u don tell me hv ur own reason..but pls don think too much this onli make u life more complicated, sad and always hurting urself, i wan is u live with a life with full of happiness not hurting urself, our life is important that money cant buy de, some ppl wan this life oso cant...so i hp u will Treasure it...u oso will say don think so much to me, but u leh?? so this time me reli hp that u don think so far...and as u told me, me always is ur bro that will accompany u even if we out of this society...so let fight for it.

Maybe..Lonley...Alone....

Maybe tis is my real life....i still cant make my life colorful like other ppl, maybe i should change bck my to my own real colour, this is where i belong, this is where i need to stay, and this is where i need to continue my black and white line....reli sad but wat to do, need to change bck oso and train myself life in lonely and alone...frenz this thing, i just realize it wont last longer...when they need u, they will follow or call u like a glue, when u useless...look u just look like invisible guys. Reli wat to do...This IS mY LiFe, My destiny...Maybe is me think so easy, In the end always get negative result...One of that person once have make me inspire at that night when i reli lonely at that night, still got 'U' remember me count down the last day of 2010 wth me, im reli happy at that night, i feel veli warm in my heart..that day i reli reli wan thank you u accompany me, i thought is maybe is u that will make my life colour and find out my true colour....In the end i wrong again, is me think too much. 'Who' 'Who' actually is my saver.....i getting tired, tired and tired oledi, pls come pull me to out from the lonley world, This world reli cant stand anymore reli make me cant breath properly....T^T

New Year-New Life-New stress ==llll....2011

Hmmm....Is 2011 liao, need to change myself cannot continue be a stupid boy, talk about 2011 they say next year 2012 is the end of the world no need make urself tired to busy around ur study and thinking or choosing ur job, but when i think all about this thing.....is it true that our earth will end at that moment??? 100% confirm...??? But i don care, if this thing reli happen, oso our destiny...at least i be a person try my best to do my thing, and i cant just do nth bez of this message tell us that this world is gonna end. For me some important thing i wan to make it come true to show that person that i oso can be like this without ur hlp to show u i not a noob person u think of...just bez, u hv money then look down of my family.."NO" u wrong, for me simple is the best, at least i got this feeling and cares from my family and my cute frenz...i won be like u, when someday i reli success, i will hlp my family up...u will see. Haiz...my school inti college, this time no make me down, reli got change a bit..like this BARU good ma. Hehe...In here, i oso wan talk about someone lo, when last night in 31/12/2010...i went bck early at home don knw y? feel so tired suddenly feel like don wan count down and sleep.....but someone lo, make me feel so happy and that night count down new year 2011 wth me when me stay at home and lie at the bed there...reli happy lo and now wan thx to that person....Thank You u la....Wahaha...^^
Hmmm....New Year New Life, so i hp my frenz and my family will frogot all the bad thing and receive a new thing..hehe^^ and Wish u all Happy New Year...wohoo...^^