Smile-Time...

Smile u hv been stick together wth me about 19 year le....but this time, maybe i will lost u le...everything i thought u can hlp me to face any difficult problem, but actually NO. Maybe i not a very good boy...and i oso hv limit, if someday u=My Smile=when u leave, i will change bck to real me...so pls let me find bck my smile, i really don wan to loss u, if i loss u..i knw wat will happen to me and it will very serious. Time. Since i hv believe u when that day happen to me, i strt to believe i knw u will change everything by time by time everyday and every minit...everyday i just do nth, read, sleep, eat, play...this is not i really wan. Its really hard to me to breath u knw...its hard, very hard for me to get u back. i really don knw i can still hv u anymore. when i loss ur smile that day, i started to try everything to let me frogot everything, but cant i still cant change everything...i start to drink and smoke try, try and try. i don wan to be like this continue my life till the end.
Sis if u hv see this page....i hope u can hlp me, i don wan say it through my mouth bez, i will feel guilty, and control me to drink and smoke. Bro me here beg u.